Still Believing for Recovery

Still Believing for Recovery

Well, it's been a really long time since I've updated my blog.  I'm still believing in my life recovery.  Depression is a problem that I have been dealing with off and on for my whole life.  I'm a weary soldier and I'm ready to move on.

I'm still trying to get past my past.  I'm not afraid of getting older, just afraid that I will deal with the same issues, even after all of these years.  I know that with God's help, I will overcome and have the life that I've always dreamed of, which is health, wealth and happiness.  

I believe that my new/last career is out there for me, I want to be the healthiest I've ever been in my life, payoff my debts, take care of my parents, buy a house, be the best sister/friend that I can be to my friends and family, and find the love of my life.  Wow, listing it like this seems more concrete.  I don't think I've seen the list written down, seems appropriate today.

Life is worth living and I have to grab every moment that I can while the good Lord gives me the time to do it.  

Amen

Overcoming my demons

Well, it's been a really long time since I've updated my blog.  A lot has happened since last year.  Good and bad.  I'm on the 5th day of a 10 day reboot program.  I'm feeling stronger and lighter.  I pray that someday I won't always worry about what I look like and concentrate on the inside and my mind.....

I'm still trying to get past my past.  How I feel about myself and move on already.  Sometimes I can hear the clock ticking. I'm not afraid of getting older, just afraid that I will deal with the same issues, even after all of these years.  I know that with God's help, I will overcome and have the life that I've always dreamed of, which is health, wealth and happiness.  

I want to be the healthiest I've ever been in my life, payoff my debts, take car of my parents, buy a house, be the best sister/friend that I can be to my friends and family, and find the love of my life.  Wow, listing it like this seems more concrete.  I don't think I've seen the list written down, seems appropriate today.

Here's to LIFE!

Well, I'm trying really hard not to be so critical of myself.  I need to relax and when I pray and ask, I need to let God do his thing.  I do need to lose weight and I need to start doing what I know how to do.  It's not going to be easy, but I know I can finally succeed.  I'd like to take a photo without being so sad all the time.  

Lord, please hear my prayer.  

Updates

Wow, it's been a long time since I've updated this blog.  Life has a funny way of getting in the way.  I've come a long way since my last entry.  My life is happy.  Simple, but true.  I'm finally figuring out that life isn't nearly as hard as I've tried to make it.

Getting out my own way and letting God in has helped me get on with it!  Lol!  Too many wasted days and years worrying about things that are out of my control.  Too many wasted days and years making unnecessary trouble for myself.

I'm in prayer about many hopes and dreams.  Finding a love of my own is still a top priority, but I'm leaving that one up to God.  I haven't done very well in love, but I have discovered that if I don't love myself enough, why would someone else?  I've been accepting who I am, what it's taken to get me here and just be.  I'm a good person with a good heart, I'm not so bad to look at, and I am worthy of the love a good man.  I really am.  I just hope it's not too late.  Sigh.....

That's enough for now, I'll be updating more in the coming days.  Today, at this moment, I am ready to take on the world.  There is still so much to do!

New ways of thinking.  I'm always looking for ways to improve or open my mind.  Today I accomplished many tasks that I put off.  Life really is a box of chocolates.

Getting through the day

Made it through another day in peace. Yea!  Just be conscience of "being in the moment" really helps me keep my mind straight.  I concentrate so hard sometimes, I forget that there are other things happening around me.  I've been doing my best to "let go and Let God" and it works!

Now, here's to a good night of sleep.  Good night.

Eye opening

It's wonderful when someone can be open and honest about their feelings.  I am so grateful when someone can let me know how they truly feel.  I appreciate it when I can see myself through someone's eyes.  It helps me to work on being a better listener and a better person.  Growing older doesn't always mean being "grown" up.  Still have a lot to learn, and that's kind of exciting!

God still has so many surprises left in store for me and I'm excited about the possibilities for change.  Grateful.