Dying to Live: My Journey Through Depression

I'm thinking of a new blog and the title will be: Dying to Live: My Journey Through Depression.  I was just reviewing my life and I find that I've been dealing with depression on and off throughout my life since I was about 7 years old.  I didn't know what it was called back then, I would just be sad and empty for no reason.  Flash forward to today, and at 53 years old, it's still an issue in my life.

Week One is Complete

Yes, I completed the first week of training and I learned to much and there is so much more to learn.  I'm looking forward to it.  I still have some challenges with regards to my finances, I just hope I can hang on until I get my first paycheck.  I'm keeping my mind focused on God, family, and work.

I'm looking ahead and not behind.  I know that God has me.....

Amen....

It's a Wonderful LIfe

Thank goodness my God is a God of many chances.  I feel like I am on the verge of something new, though unexpected, in my life.  I've come to reflect that all my of my good, great, and bad moments have shaped me into what I am today.  I may forget it sometimes in my dark moments, but I think I am not such a bad person.

I love with my whole heart and someday, maybe, I'll find someone to love wholeheartedly.  I love my family and those I consider my family.  I am stronger than I give myself credit for sometimes.  I am a bit outspoken and honest.  I'm loyal and I will give you the shirt off of my back.  I think one of my best qualities is that I love to make people laugh.  I also love to laugh, even the ugly laugh where you may snort a little.

I'm start a new position on Monday, October 26th, and though it's not in the healthcare field, it's going to be great.  Healthcare is on the back burner for now, until I get settled back down again.  I'll be working in the travel/tourism business.  Another thing that I tried oh so many years ago.  It's funny how God will lead to you back to certain things.  After training, I'll be working from home.  I'll get full benefits, vacation time, and discounts.  Yes!

So, I'm going to keep moving forward from today and see what new and exciting things God has in store for me......

Let's roll!

God has given me another opportunity, I can't let myself down.  I start training on Monday.  I will get insurance coverage again, then, back to the doctors for prescription refills and start my journey to wholeness once again.  I'm going to make sure that I document my d journey.  It's a process and I want to get that d word out of my vocabulary.........

Hopeful once again, here we go, I'm ready for the journey, my bags are packed.......

Keep your head up

I'm still staying in prayer for my mother to be cured of her cancer, for my new job, for income that exceeds my needs, for my family, for my friends.  Most of all I am grateful that God gave me another day.

Finding my way

I thank God that I was able to open my eyes this morning.  I have so much to be thankful for and even if I'm still on the search for a new job/career, I am going to stay focused on keeping my peace.  I know that God has something planned for me, something that maybe I have never thought of before.

If God is for me, who can be against me?

Hope

I didn't get any sleep again last night, but, when did sleep, it was deep.  I woke up this afternoon with fresh eyes, renewed hope, and a mind that is on the mend.  Thank you, God!  I realized that as dire as my situation is at this moment, God is with me.

I said a prayer of surrender this morning and a feeling of peace came over me.  I reached out for help and I felt God's presence.  Amen......